Tuesday, May 23, 2017

La-La-La



I am waiting at Provo Beach. My pineapple Dole Whip sends me into raptures... I chuckle, imagining my son Max wearing his ‘Whip It’ button in highschool. I hear from Morgen when we get home that he went to Momentum today in a summer intern program unleashing his harness of climbing (go, Mission Impossible) and suspiciously eye him as he proceeds to tell me, self-consciously, of the owners climb of Mt. Everest. I wait for him to open the conversation and he confirms the idea that climbing Mt. Everest is something he would like to do, a $70,000 transaction that takes a month of time. He does no such thing and returns to his harness. I snap back to reality – the boss is pulling out, twice. After Morgen confirmed that several of this man's climbing partners have died attempting to climb Mt. Everest he tells me that the idea of him climbing it has come and gone, just like my Dole Whip.





Sometime prior to my long talk:

3. My dear son chose a Flowrider (not 2 for 1) session at the provo beach resort so I could have his last birthday party for him before he's an 'adult'.
2. My dear other son served me pizza and music on his iPhone.
1. My dear appetite grew strong thanks to my J. Beiber happy dance.

Monday, May 22, 2017

Ferda



1. Wow! This music, like I've never heard it before:

2. which reminded me to visit the wonderful Red Basil...

3. ...and to register a hockey player named Markus, in which every chance you get to Colorado is for the better. Konrad's mom texted us while we were eating dinner that Wes had broken his leg and Markus is the alternate for region camp, would he be able to go in June? For a flight to Denver, and a week long hockey camp in Colorado with his friends, Jax, Konrad and Jared, he didn't see why not. Brilliant.

The camp is not long; there are even a few photos from last year's version. 

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Breakfast

To my delight - and to the hope of breakfast food everywhere - I found these four videos (filmed by Markus in the last few years or so). They instantly made my Top Four. Ladies and gentlemen, I offer you Breakfast, the most important meal of the day!


Saturday, May 20, 2017

By-way


1. Mr. Colorado - Gavin - is leaving town by way of Boulder.
2. More sleep-over birthdays came to town by way of Airborne.
3. Exercise came to town by way of a flowerider session.

Should I say that my son Markus is one excellent dude, a cute blond (curly) and a good hockey player? He might not want me to (being the modest type), but I will anyway! 100% good. Between you and me, he's going to miss Gavin!

Friday, May 19, 2017

You're A Peach

After dreaming of brownie sundaes...



1. Warm: fajitas and salad with Candie.



2. Familiar: bringing Morgen with me to her birthday party.



3. Polite: after playing trivia during the party on an iPad, 
my sister said, ‘Thank you.’


Thursday, May 18, 2017

E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G



1. I bought Morgen lunch at a hot spot not far from the hospital. Here is a young man whose artwork contained a thank you note. It's very moving.

2. I bought some of Morgen's lovely medications, which he said he doesn't need. Some for mood, some for sleep.

3. Oops. Couldn't stick those babies into his closed up mindset. I decided to stop by the mall. He needed some shoe shopping education and I needed it after my night shift! I've shopped around and believe me, this mall (love that it's so close) is TOPS. (I wouldn't want you to walk into any shopping location less divine.) In the end, he didn't even have this diagnosis, just psychosis. Still a big healing process!

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Home Again


1. Un-Shopping: My sister Lara invites us all over to her daughter Sierra's home, even though she doesn't have to. All I can think about is redecorating. I can't resist a home as cute as she made it like that.


2. Liquid Lunch: Adam and I find a nice sunny/shady spot for swilling down pints of cold, thirst-quenching protein smoothies. I get a little cold-headache and decide to go for bike ride in the park. Breezy!



3. Couch-Sofa: Whatever you call it, I call it comfortable. I settle in to relax and finish reading a delightful book called Magic Hour. Then I go home after another night shift and settle into bed and dream inspiring dreams.



Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Fresh

1. The smell of fresh lilacs, everywhere.

2. Timeslot for a massage.

3. Bro met me and brought fresh new music.

I can't get enough of Rihanna's ‘Umbrella’ this time of year...

Monday, May 15, 2017

I'm Still Looking Up

Do you ever look at your children, and you can literally feel your heart melting because you love them so much???

Yesterday went from glam to glum and back to glam again (thanks in part to little men named Max and Markus). Repeat.

1. "I made you breakfast in bed." But this hottie little biscotti named Max at home didn't stop there. With the wave of a hand, he waived the bag open with a pretty little anklet from Thailand. Oooh, he will get good karma back for that one.
2. I saw these two, who smartly brought their wheels. The phone call from Morgen was a highlight, but he kept insisting, ‘I'm wearing Jesus sandals!’ This would normally make me roll my eyes, but today it made me laugh out loud (even if it was with him).

3. I got to see Sierra's bungalow. The girl who not only pays her own rent but decorates like Joanna Gaines. When I got home, I set up the new pillows from my mom. ‘Thanks mom, you're the best!’ And all was well in my world again.


Sunday, May 14, 2017

Love Is The Whole Thing

It was a musical Mother's Day of tough mamas and fun women, sprinkled with honorable men.

1. No, no no! My bro and I listened to Norah Jones, Jack Johnson and Jason Mraz... then he helped me get the trees trimmed up in my yard.
2. So, yo, ho! Chicken salad, fresh fruit, ‘Ice Cream Cake!’ This week's food menu.

Last, but not least, the most musical - and toughest and silliest - of them all:

3. 50 First Dates! After lunch, Preslee gave me tulips and called my son ‘hot’. (Her mom had asked if I'd like to come over for Mama's day to which I proudly replied, ‘you betcha’) This was good for him. Who would sons be without mommies?


Saturday, May 13, 2017

Your Heart

knows the way...run in that direction 
1. My fit-bit counter surpassed 10,000. Thanks for counting with me!
2. Monica stopped me at the park. I am so grateful when former running mates wake me from my daydreams in public spaces.
3. A quote I love from a book I finished reading:
“It is a kiss that, once begun, never really ends. Interrupted, yes. Paused, certainly. But from that very moment onward, Vera sees the whole of her life as only a breath away from kissing him again. On that night in the park, they begin the delicate task of binding their souls together, creating a whole comprising their separate halves.” 
― Kristin HannahWinter Garden

Skip on our walk last night

chasing the ducks

Friday, May 12, 2017

Feels Like Lightning



Today was so Boo. Blah. Belch.
Hmmm ... now for the good!

1. Construction worker-rancher-brother calls me for a ride from the airport. Bed and breakfast? To surprise mom? I purse my lips together to hide my smile. Of course I'm flattered. There is a place for me in the life of Adam!

2. Morgen is working on remembering what happened (or at least how his friend called the ambulance) these days. He met a girl there, she is really tall and sexy and looks like Julia Roberts. Today he called me ‘momma’ (in a good way). He always says stuff like that. It makes me laugh.

3. I'm on to summer league hockey with Tim from a ch-ch-chilllll night last night. Just talking to him lifted my spirits. Why? I don't know, it's magic!

Well, I'm all dressed up with nowhere to go. Maybe I'll go to Wendy's for a midnight Frosty. You know, find some teenagers in the parking lot. Ha ha ha ha! Just kidding.

Thursday, May 11, 2017

The Best Thing

I can spend on my boys 

is time


They locked up Morgen in a behavioral health hospital from the other hospital after eight hours. Then I went to work all night. 

I do believe that something good comes out of everything:

1. A hot date with my Markus, who got his haircut today before we went to his jazz band concert. My dad even hugged me, over dinner, and told me how much he loved me. Thanks, daddy! My mom brought me soup and bread, I could tell it was a kind-hearted effort.

2. A hot date with cold stone, following the spring band concert.

3. A hot date with the newly-purchased jerseys. I couldn't help it any longer. I now have more stickers for the hockey team sponsors. It's really very beautiful how many people want to help.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Behavior is Communication



- A voicemail on last night's shift (bad - no, very bad). 
- But I was put on call so I could at least leave early to go see him (good). 
- This hospitalization will probably cost Morgen his summer internship (bad). 
- But there is always hope (good).

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Manners


1. A promising phone call from my dear son, Morgen.
2. A conversation with Markus about such I don't usually chat with. He's decided to stay here for one more year and not go to Colorado until next.
3. Just when I was feeling invisible, the youth in front of the school wished me a good day. Not too shabby - beautiful manners!

Monday, May 8, 2017

Morning Walks

Markets & OJ
Fresh Flowers

Beautiful Food

Great Company

Life Is A Circle

The end of one journey is the beginning of the next. 

"Don't give up just because of what someone said. Use that as motivation to push harder."

"Eventually, everything connects."

Sunday, May 7, 2017

The Best Parts

Of My Life Don't Make It To The Internet
1. Joyful email from Colorado. The coaches know how to look at life.
2. Productive and honest discussion with my friend, Mack, after tryouts at Steiner. (And three other coaches who eagerly wanted to talk to Markus)
3. Open-hearted-yet-mysterious offers of tryouts everywhere we went. West Coast Renegades, Outliers, Thunderbirds, combinations of all three...

And a Pretty Good Bonus:
4. Bucky got a nice invite to a hockey identification camp from this guy. Pretty cool. 

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Sensibility

1. I kissed you in my dream. Friends who email conversations, which were good for me. (Oh my Gosh, I can't believe I was dreaming those things?)
2. Poor salesman: at work couldn't sell my left shoe for $5. The Cinderella in me was relieved, indeed.
3. Sense and sensibility: Difficult moments made easier by my boss, I still need to thank her for offering to drive me home through a most challenging time two weeks ago.



Friday, May 5, 2017

Opportunites

1. The opportunity to stick my head out of a bus window, hair flying, smile on and sun.


2. The opportunity to pluck from a bed of brine shrimp one of many sand covered rocks.


3. The opportunity to attend a field trip for this senior's environmental science class. All while being on-call.


Thursday, May 4, 2017

Crystal Hot Springs


1. Ready, set, go! I beat the traffic to the school.
2. Under the table. I took my boys out to lunch. Markus was not speaking to us.

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3. Splish, Splash! Drenched in a hot spring, what could I do? I embraced the wet look and walked through every waterfall.


Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Teach Him He's Loved

Then He'll Be Ready
To Learn Everything Else


1. On campus, I drove Morgen to his last final for spring semester, he signed up for some new classes and received his summer funding offer/notification.
2. My long-awaited summer shift sign up at work - hallelujah! - had a nice assignment and not too many nights. My template for this go around was largely successful.
3. I shared a hamburger with a Morgen on the way home. Then a neighbor mowed my lawn (Max was too busy again).

So many good things happened, I forgot to mention that the soles of Morgen's feet are getting better, that the game was won by us and the only negative thing seems to be the wrong jersey's ordered, getting the new ones with orange on top.


Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Self Reflection: Morgen

Self:
One of the very first times that I feel I was at my best was in the first grade. We would be working on various math assignments in class, and I would finish them very quickly. Afterwards, I would help my classmates finish theirs as well. Due to this, my teacher suggested I go to the second grade classroom during math time instead of staying in the first grade room. I feel I was able to help my classmates excel, and myself as well.

Another time I felt like I was at my best was when my friend was struggling to get a ride to school in high school. Her sister’s car had just broken down, and her mom had work in the morning, so she didn’t know how she was going to get there. I offered to give her rides to school until the car got fixed, so she wouldn’t miss class. I feel like because of this, they were both able to not miss anything important.

Before I started going to college, I used to work at a retirement home. While working here, my boss was struggling to come up with a new process for how the residents ordered and ate their meals. Management felt like a new way was necessary due to increasing time pressures and resident complaints. I offered to assist in providing strategies for how to make everything more efficient, and keep the residents happy. I feel like because of my contributions, my boss was able to come up with a solution that worked for everyone.





For his final assignment paper due today Morgen let me read what everyone had written to him when he asked for examples of when he had demonstrated his character...

From:
Dalton:
I think you doing pretty good now bruh doing good in college and working and partying.

Serenity:
One of my favorite things about morgen is that no matter what he is always loyal to his friends, no matter how long we've ever gone without talking if I ever needed him he'd be there, I remember one night I got in a huge fight with my ex-boyfriend morgen like always came to the rescue and all I had to text him was where are you and he already knew I needed him, told me where he was and if I wanted him to come get me, that night I got away from a very toxic relationship all thanks to morgen being a good friend.

Another time I remember me and one of my best friends were at a party and kind of fighting with each other because she had too much to drink I almost walked home (which would have taken hours) then right before I did morgen showed up just as happy as always and put me in a completely better mood! His good mood is always contagious! & so I love being around him as much as possible!

My all-time favorite memory of morgen is when I got my wisdom teeth out, I still had to go to school and looked like a chipmunk everywhere I went so morgen the sweet guy he is puffed up his cheeks every time he seen me, and every picture I took he took with me so my face wouldn't look fat alone, sweetest friend I've ever had

Mom:
From when you were younger: You have the ability to get people to work together and give their best. For example, I think of the time that we were working on triathlon training. We were getting completely obsessed with it and the effect was showing. We started to close down and get very focused on just getting to the finish line. You noticed that we were not doing our best parenting and stopped the family to rethink our approach. You asked whether we wanted to just be triathletes or whether we wanted to really spend time together. You reminded us of what was important and how each of us could contribute to a better family group. No one else your age would have thought to do that. As a result, some of us did stop the obsessing and created a more relaxed atmosphere we all felt proud of.

From a time you helped a friend: You have a capacity to persist in the face of adversity. For example, I think of the time that you came up with the idea of helping Akbar and his family after Hurricane Katrina flooded his home. His family had just moved to Louisiana after his father's death from cancer and he was impossibly down-hearted. Instead of getting overwhelmed with emotions, you became more focused than I have ever seen anyone get. I think you went to 24 houses without stopping to help him by gathering clothes and toys and money. I was amazed that you not only donated your own build-a-bear but that you could maintain a positive attitude and consistently helpful orientation to Akbar under those conditions.

From your first job: You are great at building relationships critical to career success. For example, I think of the time that: You were working for a restaurant committed to increasing their turn-around time on tables, and to share tips with all their laborers. You were the busboy with the various side jobs like filling water and providing chips and salsa critical to speeding up the process of feeding the hungry customers, and to increase customer satisfaction after their hours of waiting in line here for authentic Mexican food. Despite unrelenting crowds, you crafted and co-created a vision for how the bussing of tables could work to meet the expectations of the owner. You easily navigated cultural differences and built strong relationships that thrive to this day.

Grandma:
Morgen you were at your best when you worked to become an Eagle Scout. You showed great tenacity to complete the very exhausting and challenging requirements. Especially since you didn't really enjoy the program! You were a positive example to the younger scouts. It was a character building challenge for you because you endured to the end and you received your Eagle Scout Award! We were very proud of your accomplishments.

Morgen it is so admirable that you chose to become an Accountant. A very difficult and intense course of study. Grandpa knows as he graduated from BYU at the top of his accounting class! You have shown your brothers and your numerous cousins that to make a decision that entails hard work and dedication is worthwhile. So proud that you are at the top of your class!!

You were at your best when your friends were struggling with various problems and you took them home and shared your room with them. You are a kind thoughtful person who really cares for others. I remember a few stray dogs who also found refuge in your room too!

Monet:
When Morgen completed his Eagle Scout badge I realized he has a willingness to do hard things and finishes what he starts.  To accomplish this high honor, Morgen showed a tremendous amount of perseverance as well as dedication and hard work. It speaks to his depth of character to be able achieve this very prestigious award at such a young age.  

Morgen has always exemplified compassion and a willingness to serve and help others. He showed this countless times, as he helped his cousin with her difficult math assignments… Without complaint and with patience, he was instrumental to her success in math class. 

Morgen is very strong willed and independent. He has shown he has inner strength as he followed his passion even when it went against what other people thought he “should" be doing. He was true to himself and followed his individual path. 

Dad:
You are very focused in meeting a challenge. I remember when you were on the chess team in Junior High. We were playing chess one afternoon and I challenged you to beat me. I don't believe you had beat me before. You were behind at the time but you focused your efforts and turned the game around and defeated me. I was very impressed.

You are great at accomplishing your goals. I know High School wasn't the best time for you and you had a few challenges to deal with. When you decided your career path in college you set a goal to not only get a degree and work out the financing but to do the best you could do along the way. I have been so impressed at how hard you have worked at school and the high grades you have achieved. Your hard work has earned you scholarships and the recognition of your professors and fellow students.

You have the ability to sense the need in others and help them in a time of need. When you were younger you had a friend from a foreign country that needed to move due to some hardships his family was experiencing. You took the initiative on your own to organize a drive to collect clothing and money to help your friend and his family in his time of need. I was so impressed by your caring and compassion to make this happen to help a friend.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Quarter of a Century

Sierra = 25
1. Meow! Spring is in the birthday: A New Unicorn theme for my niece named Sierra who happens to be a quarter of a century. 

2. Ka-Ching! Spring is in the breezy corridors of City Creek, in the rustling leaves of the streets and parks, and in the warm sun hugging a city emerged from another winter.

3. Cheers! Spring is in patios burst wide open. It's in bicycle wheels and wide open car windows. It's in jackets tossed aside and in fresh allergies saying hello to the world. Nine years ago, I acquired a lovely allergy test upon recommendation of a friend. Today, the friend stood behind my youngest son and offered him all his coaching skills for his first high school game, to a not-yet-freshman. Sweet!

Spring is in the air!